you piss me off

sigh...whats up with people? i dont know whether to be pissed or sad, but i feel mostly pissed. It makes me so angry to think that...well maybe i shouldnt say exactly cause...fear of peering eyes. but fuck it. How can you say we arent good friends of yours when we try so hard to help you with your problems. what the hell... and every time we try to get close you push us away. you dont let us in and call us fourth class because of it? I believe i already got rid of the bad apple in my life. aside form the obvious. He wont be taken care of until i no longer have to live under his roof. i believe you are capable of being a good friend.
what i also dont understand is how you can say you give way more than we do. As much as iv at least tried to help you out with your problems...you never once asked me about mine. not once. It would seem as if you dont care. i want us to be friends. cause honestly i think your worth the hassle. i really do. But...the more and more i think about it i get more angry. i know your goin through some shit right now so i wont bother you about it. as much as it tears at me. i just dont understand your motive. i also wont jump the gun and assume what you did before us. I just want to know why you keep pushing us away...thats it. jeezz..we want to help. i want to help. stop shutting us out! its annoying.